[[*---Swirling in the abyss of Darkness---*]]

Sunday, November 25, 2007

[[exhaustion.]]

days have been fulfilling recently...going out early in the morning...and only to return late at night. been working for a few days...think its a great thing. working allows me to keep my mind off things...things that i do not wish to deal with or be reminded off...it allows you an alternative space to put all your energy into...so that you would return home finally...exhausted...too tired to even start thinking about things. exhaustion can be such an important feeling at times. not to mention with the help of trainings.

wondering.
with each coming day,
i walk by and never stay,
never once to look back,
for all it does is make me sad,

unknowingly.
to be lost in the train of thoughts,
wondering what is fine and what is not,
but to be engulfed by memories,
that seems to come by with the breeze,

in reality.
though painful and sad they might be,
filled with sorrows as you can see,
yet...
they will always be etched in me,
constantly reminding how cruel life can be,

all in all.
with love comes lost,
with lost comes pain,
with pain comes sorrow,
with sorrow comes learning,
with learning comes growing,

still.
life goes on and thats a fact.
hate it, love it...live it.

__fiEryhA__

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Sunday, November 18, 2007

[[nothing.]]

aye...about a quarter of the holidays are gone already...and i havent really done much. been busy with track stuffs...track board...banner...open house...and of course training. holiday assignments have not been touched at all...obviously...i don't even know what assignments are to be done...but heck...its only a quarter of the holidays...right...?

open house was boring...its like more j1s are around compared to the sec4s...figure that. what a negative impression to give to the sec4s who WERE interested...and how weird was it...that the school find linkin park songs noisy...compared to retarded irritating tunes like UMBRELLA -.-"

its been boring hanging around at home...in front of the tv like the whole day...if not the computer...watching movies after movies...not that im complaining but it really gets boring...caught a lot of nice shows. well...at least there was some fun at home recently...people coming to play mahjong...and i made a new friend...sort of. she seems a fun person. though i lost money -.-"

thinking positive...kind of hard...considering the truth have already been shoved into my face...proving me wrong. in this case...wanting to be positive...would mean to deceive myself...isn't it? since i've always been being positive about it...until now.

for once in a very long time...i stopped by the place yet again...late at night.

always waiting and wishing for the impossible to happen...

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Friday, November 09, 2007

[[thinking.]]

what if i fail...what if im not up to it...what will happen then?

aye...

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