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Monday, May 28, 2007

[[hols]]

well...its finally the june hols. hmm i realised what was supposed to be a damn busy and hectic holiday have suddenly turned slack due to an unfortunate incident....but no matter...im sure that there would be things for me to do...at least thats what i think. i wont be able to go sweat it out and train hard with u guys already...i wont even be there to watch u guys at work...but remember that my spirit will always be with all of you...so train real hard for the upcoming competitions yeh? sadly the times when there are land training clashes so i cannot be there...and obviously the other water trainings...no need for me to further elaborate.

holidays suck cos it aint even a real holiday...its more like the period of break from school before common test. the time when people like me decide on whether to try out our luck...to study only at the last minute so that we enjoy more...or to start revision early and be fully prepared but not enjoying the holiday well. i havent decided. but dun think i will choose to revise...it just aint my style.

its also a break from the new jc life...which i find uber boring from all the lectures and tutorials and especially the damn project work in which i got a f-ed up group...which damn group have the guys working their asses off while the girls are like total retardos. might as well juz put 3names in the group and leave the other 2 girls to die...sometimes we dun even know whether they understand what is going on. thankfully i got a great class with a bunch of great buddies.

with so much free time now...especially the freedom to slp late and wake up late. it give us more time to fully enjoy the night...erm not the dirty way. as in...only during the night...especially late into the night like when im writing this post...when everything is so quiet and serene...no disturbance at all...the only noise now is your favorite emo music blasting in your ears...and u stand by the window...looking up and staring at the moon illuminating the dark night. doesnt it seem so familiar...the feeling of a glimmer of hope when u're lost in the abyss of darkness...looks the same doesnt it? its like the best time when u start reflecting on the past...things that happened recently...maybe some things u did that u regret...some things that u havent done...things that make u sad...that make u happy. i guess it juz reminds me of last saturday...but well...its over isnt it...nothing much left for me to think about it...except to relish the memories we all made together in these few short months. doubt i'll ever find such bonds and frenship in track n field...that should be the thing that i would miss the most. hope dat we wun drift away from each other until eventually that special feeling is gone...that is usually what happens in the future after we've been seperated.

mmm its a windy nite...thats nice...i juz feel so tired...tired from fighting everything against me...tired against fighting the inevitable...tired against fighting myself. but that the way life is isnt it? filled with ups and downs...obstacles one after another...never giving us a break from it...always full of surprises be it good or bad. i believe that i've already experience a fair share of seriously bad times...things which most peers dun experience...but im sure there would be worse to face in the future...let it come...

Life is a mystery that takes a lifetime to unravel.
__fiEryhA__

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Saturday, May 19, 2007

[[sudden.]]

wow...its been a long time since i last posted. tink i might be posting more often liao...with the extra time dat im gonna have...i trust some of u noe wht im tokin abt.

well it was juz so sudden...so unexpected. i didnt realise dat was all the time i was given to change...to improve...to overcome my own problem. bud anw...its all too late now ehh. its already been 5mths now...might seem like such a short time...bud the times we spent together would nvr be forgotten...all the sweat and hardship dat we endured together. well...now its up to u guys to carry on the journey...mine ended le.

tinking back abt the past...looking at the remains of wht u hav left behind...i seriously wonder how my life wud be different from now. its already been a few yrs and i've kinda gotten used to not having u arnd anymore. every memory...every emotion...buried deep within.

nvm its late and im lazy...nxt time den post another one.

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