[[*---Swirling in the abyss of Darkness---*]]

Saturday, December 30, 2006

[[so long 2006.]]

well...tml's the last day of beloved yr 2006 liao. guess i wun hav time to blog tml so im gna blog now since i got time. so...its been a time since olvls been over and so hav the hols it seems. 4 more days till sku reopens...and off to sajc to begin my 3mths thr. wonder wht lies in store for me ehh...

so...4yrs...or actually it seems more like 2 yrs in cchms...first 2 yrs were boring meaningless and no fun at all. time really did fly...it always seem like such a short time when u start looking back. makes u wonder...have i really been in cchms for 4 yrs already? well...it sure seems dat way. im so gna miss....the clsrm...the toilet...the sku...whereas for the ppl in the sku...nvm de lah.

my mind not working...i dno wht else to type. oh ya...the damn rain finally stopped and the sun is finally out today...wht a miracle. today weather veh gd...bud im at home...darn. anw nvm tml gng out..hopefully everything goes well tml. all go marina bay welcome 2007 yeh?

abandon all delusions, embrace all uncertainties, live life without regrets
__fiEryhA__

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Thursday, December 14, 2006

[[last minute]]

well...i guess even though i didnt went today...i stiu gotta wish u happy birthday before the day ends ehh. so here it goes...happy birthday brudder. may u find peace and happiness whrevr u may be. Happy Birthday.

death is bud the beginning to all sorrows.
__fiEryhA__

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Sunday, December 03, 2006

[[weird personality quiz.]]

lolx i juz did a personality quiz.

You Are An INFP (whtevr dat means -.-")

The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

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[[finally im back.]]

wow...been long since i've been here. its a gd thing actually...considering the fact that almost everything i post here is not a happy thing. it means dat my recent life hav either been busy and filling or nth sad happened. i guess im indeed quite busy yeh. firstly frm all those olvl shits...then after that had the most fun period of my life going out every single day to play till i break...class chalet...and prom nite. finally time for a breather to recap...and see if i missed anything out. hahaha.

still back to the old worry that clings onto me. the part whereby we all hav to be seperated still saddens me much. dammit man..why cant we carry on as a class to jc. why muz we be seperated. this is a bloody sick society. ahhh...made and strengthened so many frenships in sec3 and 4...bud now its soon gng to end. why did i open up only during my sec3 life...why couldnt i have met u guys in sec1...den mayb life in sku wud hav been much more colourful. and mayb if u were still by my side things wudnt be so bad as u can still share ur experiences with me...

its december yet agn. looking back dis yr seemed to have flashed right past. ouch. nvr have i realised that time truly flies so fast when u are unaware of it...why cudnt i have treasured it more. i cn still vividly rmb last yr's class chalet...haha. mayb its cos i was the one who booked it. bud anyway...THAT particular time of the yr is here again...lasat yr thr was class chalet to keep my mind off things...bud whts gna happen dis yr. i have no idea actually. shld i go visit u...or shld i not. i noe dey wud most probably be gng...like dey always do...without asking me along. dammit man i noe dat dey think its for my own gd hoping dat i wud stop brooding over the past and try my best not to rmb u. bud dun dey get it? its not only abt em...its directly concerning me...and since its my business...shldnt i be the one who decides whether i wan to go or not? trust in me...believe dat i cn do it...im honestly not as fragile as u tot i am...it might even be gd for me...we wud all hav to face it eventually. it pains me to noe dat im not asked to go along...bud anw...its not like i havent gone thr behind ur backs before.

how many times muz i explain dat im not an emo kid. i left the room at dat time cos i dun wna see things dat make me so uncomfortable. u guys juz dun realised wht it is dng to me yeh. although i noe that thr is nth wrong with dat...perfectly normal...quite a gd thing even. bud i juz cnt stop myself frm hurt. the more i saw it happening...the more it felt like i was stabbing myself with a knife. so i might as well leave the rm...although my mind wud still be preoccupied on it...at least it felt btr not to be witnessing it anymore. i juz cnt get over myself...zzz

asking myself, "can i truly let go?"
__fiEryhA__

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