[[*---Swirling in the abyss of Darkness---*]]

Sunday, July 23, 2006

[[unwittingly.]]

u know...almost everyone of us hav our own secrets...things which u dun really go abt telling everyone u know (like duh). well...some secrets cn actually be events which happened before and ppl juz dun wanna be reminded of it anymore...bud as u noe...nt everyone noe abt it...so sometimes ppl might actually say things which wud trigger such memories. u know...especially when ppl who doesnt noe anything juz happen to mention things which u try to forget...the weird...spooky...nervous...uneasy feeling dat u wud experience...its juz rather terrible. u might be able to understand dat dey are ignorant...as the saying goes bu zhi zhe wu zui...bud stiu it doesnt stop dat feeling. u long to tell them whtevr secret dat u hide...bud yet u are doubtful whether dey wud be able to comprehend or not...also...some things juz aint dat easy to talk abt. the things might hav absolutely nth to do wid them at all...so it might also mean nth to them even if u told them. since it mean nth to dem thus dey might forget abt it soon...since dey might forget abt it...why bother to tell dem in the first place. secrets dat are unpleasant are even worst in such cases. apparently ppl wans to forget abt unpleasant things...bud yet...thr will always be particular words places and things done dat might bring those memories back. for example...an orpahn wud most probably in most cases feel at least slightly awkward when ppl are tokin abt their parents and all...also...like when someone in the family passes on and a distant relative doesnt noe abt it yet so he/she blurts out the person's name happily. also...like in most youths nowadays...hav secrets like their crushes...their ex...and so on. awkward situations cn also happen...for example...if he/she has a crush on his/her best frenz stead...and the stead asks u who do u like...u cnt possibly bluntly say dat u like him/her neither wud u wan to do it in the first place for his/her stead is ur best frenz...wudnt dat be omg...or if ur frenz are like talking bad abt ur crush...which dey dun noe is ur crush...wudnt dat also be omg. bud anyway...since dey hav no idea abt wad's gng on in ur head...dey cn actually be pardoned...dey also wun noe dat wht dey say might adversely affect u...or cause u to be uneasy. it usually takes courage and trust to conifde ur secrets in another person...and hopefully dat wud be a wise choice. thus one shld be honoured if a frenz confides his/her secrets in u. for some secrets...we might nt even noe how to go abt telling it...or mayb the time isnt ripe yet...or thr hasnt been a gd time to talk abt it. also...especially when sharing secrets of sad past or experience...u dun wan ur fren to end up pitying u or over reacting or looking at u wid a diff eye. so come to think of it...thr's quite alot of things dat shld be taken into consideration before u share ur secrets...most impt of all u do not wan to affect ur frenz mood after listening to it...surely u wun wan it to be like a burden on ur fren. ok...basically i hav no idea wht i hav typed all dis while...juz crapping all arnd...

understand dat things wud be btr kept dis way.
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Friday, July 14, 2006

[[haunting.]]

in life thr's definitely times of unhappiness...times which u wanna juz forget abt and throw outta the window...times which u dun ever wanna be reminded of. usually...one wudn't wanna visit places which hold such memories...yet most of the times its inevitable. imagine the torment one faces when he/she hav to pass by a particular place which haunts of memories the person juz wanna forget. constantly being reminded of the incident each and everytime he/she walks by. unable to block em out. i wonder wht cn be done...

apparently some situations are beyond our control...especially situations which we dun wanna be in yet somehow we stiu ended up in em. sometimes we do certain redundant things despite the fact dat we do not hav to so...and it might even being us pain...bud somehow some ppl are juz willing to do it.

dumb career seminar...fine lo...decided most probably be gng to tjc liao la. though vjc is also a choice. dno liao la...dowan bother abt such things now...ltr in the yr den tink abt it bahh. been quite a busy wk...everyday also go home late in the evening. i also dowan go home early anyway...go home also nth to do. all thr's to look forward in life now are tests...quizes...tuitions...homeworks...homeworks...and more homeworks. no life man.

sinking into a situation im nt suppose to be in.
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Saturday, July 08, 2006

[[hmmm.]]

sinking into a situation im nt suppose to be in. wonder how to get outta it...how cn u try to give up something which u juz found? it aint easy...it brings pain...bud some things juz hav to be done. anyway...u cn also choose nt to give it up...juz dat sometimes it might really hurt. bud it does seem quite dumb to find something dat u shld hav to giv up...if so den why bother finding it in the first place...might as well leave it forever buried and hidden away from the lights of life. bleahx....im blabbering all abt without even knowing wht im blabbering abt.

the past erm...5 days? quite normal...except for the nationals...stupid jav shld be can go in de...too kan chiong liao...stiu hurt my stupid leg. oww. discus into finals...top 10 mayb got chance...top 8 den hard liao. cn only blame myself for wasting away my sec3...in terms of cca and studies. now den realised veh hard to catch up. hahaha...nvm imma born slacker!

packing locker is juz too weird for me...cos i noe it will soon be messy yet again...lolx. some funny kia and his zharbo took so long juz to take one photo...absolutely hilarious. the dumbest thing i did was to run away frm a kind and helpful soul who offered to send me to the bus stop frm sku....bud the soul wasnt exactly dat kind for i was being whacked as i ran....heng not pain. bud i also shy to sit ppl car la...was training and playin juz now den sweaty sticky smelly whr dare to sit ppl car...lolx. so instead i prefered to walk by me lonesome listening to music slowly walking and admiring the early moon. turned out to be rather peaceful calming and fun. before blogging...i stiu go wham my leg against the stupid bed...the one which was injured ytd. dunno why wham on smooth surface bud stiu got blood de...hmmm. hit on the bone thr...den like got one dent...cool siah.

sinking into a situation im nt suppose to be in.
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Monday, July 03, 2006

[[weird.]]

omg...juz as soon as the wkend started...it ended -.-" die la...once again i havent done anything for the wkends. im sucha failure...cnt even stick to wht i had planned to do. tml nid to go sku liao...stiu nt sure whether thr's any hw dat was suppose to be done during the wkends. if got hw dats suppose to be done den i die le lo...

issit me...or are thr truly 2 moons in the sky...okok...nt dat serious. juz abit giddy nauseous headache sore throat warm coughing aching niah...lolx. weird lah....i was feeling juz fine dis morning...tsk. im beginning to convince myself dat finishing ss by the nxt wk is an impossible task for me. oh ya...and thr's egeog...helmet ho stiu havent discovered dat i've nt handed in...so i stiu hav a lil' time. and sadly i tio egeog remedial due to my marvellous 17/50 for mid yr. my combine humanities juz sux...and of cos many other subjects too.

for dno how long i nvr play com liao...everyday i on the com...go on msn...on music...and juz stone. yes. stone. wht is the world coming to....haha. dun care lahhh...for nw juz stick to stoning and rotting.

death is bud the beginning to all sorrows.
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