[[*---Swirling in the abyss of Darkness---*]]

Thursday, June 29, 2006

[[zoom.]]

omg...first wk is hell...nt only am i so tired everyday cos im nt used to wake up so early...bud the chers are all chasing for the hols hw i owe dem. all say hand in by dis wk...which means im suppose to complete hw dat is meant for one mth in 1 wk...plus the new lessons learnt and new hmwks given. nt to mention my stupid tuition works...zzz. giving me headache siah. those hypocrite in the cls all say dowan do de in the end all did. dun blame dem too la...i knew in my heart dat dey sure do de...and now im also forced to do.

hate doin the stupid profile thing for eng...praise myself...i got nth to say abt myself. took me so long...in the end the parts abt myself i ask a buddy to write for me...lolx. so long as cn hand up ok liao. abt egeog...helmet ho nt yet asking for it...so i shall hand it in nxt wk...and i juz rmb i hav to attend some shit remedial for egeog cos my results sux...the first day stiu got test on agriculture -.-" sianzzz. kk...i go try do ss liao...

death is bud the beginning to all sorrows.
__fiEryhA__

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Sunday, June 25, 2006

[[goin' back.]]

omg omg omg. today's da final day of the hols...man...dat shucks. unable to stay up and wake up as late as i wan to le...cnt spend my day idling and watchin tv le...dis is badd. bud on the contrary...i get to see mua great buddies again...those buddies who make either make or break my day. lolx. hmmm...hang on...sku reopen...doesnt dat mean...*gasps* *gulp* *shivers* *faints*...4 more mths to it-who-muz-nt-be-named. the mysterious mr O. the one who either made or ruined the future of countless innocent and naive 16 yr olds...woohoo! muz come up wid sme dramatic arrival for it-who-muz-nt-be-named, mr O.

death is bud the beginning to all sorrows.
__fiEryhA__

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Friday, June 23, 2006

[[dsa]]

lollerskates. imma gna try DSA for tjc....bwahaha. trials gna be on 27th june...which is 2nd day of sku reopening. wanna go thr play...cn or cnt go in i also dun rly care...lolx. i dun even noe besides trials stiu nid to do wht to get in. dun tink i cn get in anyway...hahahha.

ytd physics prac was lame...quite easy except for dat stupid question asking for a practical investigation. dumb cher dowan let me go loo...so i purposely stand up to do the practical and dulan her. till she finally boh bian let me go. woots....i won siah. den today chem lecture...i go thr copy de...haha. boring siah...over 3 hrs of copying answers...den in the end also nvr hand in de. who cares...at least went to sku...seen frenz...had sme fun...tok cock wif dem...laughing like idiots...quite fun lahh. tml...or rather ltr today...dno wht to do...dun rly feel like doin any hw...cos anyway sku abt to reopen le...cher wan scold den scold bahh. wonder who will msg me tml...besides my tutor...or shld i say wonder who will msg juz to chat wid me. lemme make a guess...no one! apparently im nt popular at all...so its like rare for smeone to do dat. or else means smeone read dis den juz mian qiang send me a msg or two to coax me niah. usually im da thick skinned one to msg ppl on hows their day or wht dey doin blah blah. nvm la...used to it liao. lolx.

bleahx. im kinda tired...its almost time for brazil against japan...im gna watch...hahahha. kkk...i go rest before it starts liao...hahhaha.

death is bud the beginning to all sorrows.
__fiEryhA__

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Sunday, June 18, 2006

[[closin in.]]

aye...3 wks hav past since the beginning of the june hols and one wk left to go. dats fast. so much to do yet so little time...or in my case...i HAD time...bud i juz didnt make full use of it. or rather i didnt make use of it at all. tsk tsk. watched Silent Hill on thurs. was kinda interesting...considering how crazy the woman was...crazily brave. no one in the right mind wud do wht she did...it was either uber brave or uber stupid. didnt quite catch wht fully taken place...until the end we were stiu guessing like whts goin on. cos the movie was frm a game...each time some creatures came out...we wud be like saying "level 1, level 2, final level, boss level.." dis sorta things...made the show more interesting. and it wasnt even scary...at least nt as scary as i tot it wud be. muz catch Pirates of the Caribean 2...coming liao coming liao...actually stiu got quite some time before it comes out la. Scary Movie 4 coming out...looks to be darn funny...trailer was cool. feel like goin to watch the Man of Steel. who else wanna go watch movies de? first 5 to reply...i treat movie...lolx. jk jk...dun mad...i no money de.

hols hw almost nt touched at all...shld i start? or shldnt i? nvm...dun care first...let nature take its course...if im destined to do hw...i will do it no matter wht...if im destined nt to do...den cfm wun be doin any le...wahhaha.

death is bud the beginning to all sorrows.
__fiEryhA__

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Monday, June 12, 2006

[[back again.]]

apparently thr's only like 2 conclusions for the obvious absence for sucha long time frm dis place...first conclusion...is dat dis hols hav been sucha great fun and completely filled with activities dat i dun even hav time to take a breather to blog...the other conclusion is dat dis hols is so totally boring and dat i dun even hav a slightest clue of wht cn i blog abt thus nt blogging. i believe its the latter (which means the second one). kinda obvious anyway....

so im back once again...i kinda love dis place...cos veh few ppl wud actually stop by here and even fewer noes abt it. thus making it the greatest place for me to vent out all frustrations...express all happiness...pour out all sorrows.

though some things hav happened like 2 yrs ago...it juz aint dat easy to forget...especially since dat was juz so special...and it had the potential to like become the closest to my heart in the future. 2 yrs ago..means im only like 14...time when i was like dumb ignorant childish imature brat and sucha nonsensical nuisance. no wonder i always make u angry. now i understand...i honestly do...and i hav changed...u aint here to witness it anymore. thr was like a gazillion thing which i havent done for u...with u...all the things which u hav done for me. things dat i will nvr ever in my life forget abt...if only i had grown up sooner...den mayb i cn be thr to listen to wht might be troubling u. cn't u juz gimme a chance and tok to me...i realised dat many a times i was in the wrong without even realising it...so now i do my best to be thr for all my frenz especially when dey nid it. it might be a way of relieving the pain in my heart or mayb juz a way of reminding myself dat dis is wht i owe u...and the least i cn do is nt repeat the mistake to others.

i rmb the time many yrs ago when u came outta nowhere to juz protect me...i was so worried for u...and felt safe in ur presence...even though u were the one who took the hit...i was the one crying instead. and dat time when u bought my a present for my bdae...it was a cool shirt...bud veh big...being childish foolish stupid idiotic at dat time...i was like laughing at how dumb u were to nt even noe my size...im truly sry abt it. its was the thought dat count and u actually saved up money for dat...when u nvr ever had the habit of saving money.

i hate u at times for provoking me...only becos i provoked u in the first place. we planned to be tgt forever and ever on...and dat yr...i was like so rdy to get u a present for ur bdae in return...and u toked abt how u were gonna celebrate mine. yet...before any of these cud ever come true...u were gone. why did u do it...cn't u hav even the sense to tell me why...must u leave my hanging thr...nt noeing why u left...leaving me wif such tremendous pain my my heart...a big hole u tore...everlasting and ever pain. it might be slightly btr if only i knew why u did it.

u didnt even give me a chance to apologise for wht i did earlier dat day. given our ties...i shudve known smethng was nt right...if only i had been thr. grrr...i honestly hate myself. and u at times. u made me into smeone who is unable to express wht i feel at times...when i hav to smile even if my heart was bleeding. didnt u realised dat ur memory was alrdy permanently etched in my mind...dat i cn nvr forget u...yet u stiu inflicted such dmg on me. now...im unable to utter dat word whenever i wan to...dat special word held too much memories in it. mayb one day i might feel like saying it all out. mayb...

long blog dis time round...to compensate for the long time ive been gone frm here. also i hav to say dis to two veh close frenz...if u wud ever come here to take a look. be brave and hang in thr...dun ever tink abt ending life as dat is the worst ever idea and the most irresponsible one at dat...if u both are willing...u cn try for the 18 yr thing...2-3 yrs aint as long as it seems...it is heart-wrenching at times...so...if anyone of u cnt take it...pls juz end it...it wud be hard bud at least the pain wud stop sooner...rmb dat the journey of life is stiu veh long for either of u...such things are but part and parcel of life...life goes on no matter wht...studies muz also nt be neglected due to dis incident. believe me dat whtever choices u both make...we wud all be supporting u two and assist u both in whtever ways we cn.

death is bud the beginning to all sorrows.
__fiEryhA__

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