[[*---Swirling in the abyss of Darkness---*]]

Saturday, February 25, 2006

[[first day.]]

well well well....hcl & ss...2 papers well done. for hcl. i brilliantly skipped 20m worth of questions. done summary in 5min. zhong he tian kong abt half guess de. den for ss arh. scribbled all the way like everyone else. 1b and 2 nvr finish cuz no time. my writing too slow liao. smart rites? juggling btw studies and cca. nt constant. like shares liddat de. nt in studyng mood. so sianz...my life's a mess. billion of things are clogging up my puny lil' brain. headache. confused. cn't life be any simplier for a simple person like mi. ppl come ppl go. gd at times bad at times. ups and downs. nth to look forward to anymore...no hopes...no goals...no dreams...no wishes. everythng's becoming pure responsibility. unable to fall into slumber. soon turning into a living zombie. whr does salvation lie in...

__fiEryhA__

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Thursday, February 23, 2006

[[ct]]

well. common test officially begins tml. it sucks yea. interestng day today...walked outta sku alone. quite a pleasant journey. gentle breeze...no sun...cooling weather...quiet surroundings. wuld've been better if i had my mp3 wid mi...sadly someone borrowed it -.-" cuz i didn't expect to be walkng out alone. doesn't realli matter aniwae...hw old liao...nt lyk first time walkng out alone mahh. ok lahh...expectng all u peeps out dere to be furiously at work...unlike mi...so carry on bahh...i wish u all gd luck i guess. juz praying to pass all. future of my com depends on it...

__fiEryhA__

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Monday, February 20, 2006

[[pissed]]

cheers to all wid unreasonable yet loving at times mum. congrats to mi for successfully quarelling wid her and i won. bud wht the heck is the use? mum's always bigger aint she? dey cn juz freaking go "im ur bloody mum. i say no means no. no reason why. bud i juz feel like sayin no lehh. wht the heck cn u do abt it?" and wht cn u say? nth apparently. tok logic to her. is equivalent to toking to a mad dog. all u say makes sense yet the ader party's reply always makes no sense at all. like soonkueh always say "their brain are made of mercury. nth sinks in." no offense meant. i juz wan her to be more reasonable. if ur in the wrong. juz fiaking say sry lah. dey simply love jokin at the wrong times. wht a smart thing to do. dey nt happy, cn juz go "imma gonna cancel ur line. imma gonna cancel the internet. imma gonna throw the fucking com away." wow...tok abt creativity siah. always the same things. sry to those reading my blog yea. cuz i m pissed. nt suitable for under 15 due to mature themes.

__fiEryhA__

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Saturday, February 18, 2006

[[reminiscing]]

today's the day. day when it all happened. why. why. why. it's stiu goin through my mind all the time. dun tell mi u cnt even giv a valid reason to do so? wht the hell was goin through ur head dat time. unable to forgo forgive forget. bud. sadly. the greatest regret of my life was also on dat day. i shld hav done it. why didnt i. shit lah. why didnt i. always disobedient yet obedient only at the wrng time. wht the hell was goin through my mind. my attitude was so wrng. it was my fault. i was nt dere fer u when i shld hav been. mayb things wuld hav been diff if i wasnt so childish. hate myself. detest myself. loathe myself. bud its all too late. far too late. no one cn help nw. it juz keeps haunting mi. words cnt express hw i feel. it barely touches the surface of reality. tears unable to flow. wht else cn i do bud sigh in a corner. reminiscing. wishing to forget all abt it. u were my everything. bud i nvr cherished u. u r selfish. irresponsible. cold-hearted. yet. kind. loving. best i could ever hope for. nvr able to treat u well alrdy. hw i wish time could turn back...vanished forever...

__fiEryhA__

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Wednesday, February 15, 2006

[[dread]]

dreaded day drawing closer. memories flood my mind. in a whirl. no ones knows. no one cares. drowning in myself. no hope. no dreams. no wishes. wondering whts wrong wif mi. loneliness ish all i got left. when ur nt by my side. u nvr hav. u nvr will. u will nvr be. dun bother asking mi why. cuz u dun even share ur prob wid mi.

__fiEryhA__

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Tuesday, February 14, 2006

[[doomsday]]

aye. the most hated and loved day of the year ish here. where ppl cried fer salvation and fer hope. cheers to all lovelorn homosapiens out dere clinching onto dat "hope" of their life, foolishly wishing dat their dreams would be fulfilled. bud at least, it was a pleasant sight to see dat frenz who are woo-ing the gal of their dreams are going all out. putting in effort sweat time and even blood...all bud to please the gal...behold the power of lurve siah. well...dey provided mi wid many inspirations fer gifts. entered gym smiling and exited sulking. no idea wht happened to mi...thought my throwing was bad bud nooo O.o ...i realised...dat it cn be worse and personally experienced it first-hand today. mani mani thanks to all who gave mi a present. seriousli veh happy to receive em. hopfully the recipients of my prezzies are happy wid theirs...i noe their nt nice to begin wid...bud it shld be the thought dat counts i guess...wonder whether it achieved the goal of brightening someone's day? o.O

__fiEryhA__

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Sunday, February 12, 2006

[[valentine's]]

vday mania hitting town once again in two days. love will once again be in the air. those in love would be drowning in it and those outta love would be dreading it. oh well...it all depends on your perspective of it. mine obviously is nt optimisstic at all...with no target no lurve no thoughts blah blah etc. bud aniwae. i stiu gibing aders presents. wshing to brighten ader's vday. so dat it will nt be like mine...stiu got cca on dat day...how sad cn it get...tsk tsk tsk. no worries anyway...used to it le..hahas

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[[sulking-]]

making it seems impossible wid nothing left to hold on.

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